Apr 04 2012

D is for Dorner

Dorner, which originally meant “one who lives near
thorny bushes,” is a German surname. The Dorner side of my family had
immigrated to America
over a century before the World Wars. Grandma Dorner was a fantastic cook,
unlike me who should be banned from kitchens everywhere!

            Kelly makes
Jell-o far better than I have. http://youtu.be/fmFIeSmBjRQ

As this post is short, I shall now answer a few more
questions about me:

(Found on another A to Z challenge blog:  christinegion.blogspot.com/2012/03/50-questions-that-will-free-your-mind.html?spref=fb )

1.      How old would you be
if you didn’t know how old you are?

I would probably be
27.

2.      Which is worse,
failing or never trying?

Depends what it is.
Usually never trying is worse, because then you will always wonder.

3.      If life is so short, why
do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

We are ruled by
obligations. Or we hide behind them, calling it “the responsible
choice.”

4.      When it’s all said and
done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

Probably. As long as I
have written more than I have done, I’ll go out considering this a full life.

5.      What is the one thing
you’d most like to change about the world?

I would like to flocks
of space aliens appear, because then the world might stop dividing every human
into the smallest boxes possible.

6.      If happiness was the
national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

Entertaining children.

7.      Are you doing what you
believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

Both, at any given
moment unless I’m writing.

8.      If the average human
life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

Write more, sleep
less.

9.      To what degree have
you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

I lost control about
ten years ago.

10.  Are you more worried about doing things
right, or doing the right things?

I’m worried about
doing the right things the right way, which is even harder!

11.  You’re having lunch with three people you
respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours,
not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and
unjustified.  What do you do?

I lose my respect and
admiration for them, and feel bad for them that they have snapped to wrong
conclusions rather than get to know someone who is really a great person. If
think these three people have enough brain power to digest information, I would
set them straight. If not, I would just find a way to insult them without their
knowing.

(See “How I met
Your Mother” season 3 episode 2 “We’re Not From Here.”)

12.  If you could offer a newborn child only one
piece of advice, what would it be?
Stay adorable. Seriously, newborn
children don’t comprehend what we’re saying, they just understand the
inflections of our voices and the emotions of our eyes.

13.  Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Yes.

14.  Have you ever seen insanity where you later
saw creativity?

This question describes
my best friend to a t; so yes, I have seen it many times.

15.  What’s something you know you do differently
than most people?

Think. Every time I
play Family Feud online, I am assured that I think differently than others.

16.  How come the things that make you happy don’t
make everyone happy?

There is nothing which
can make everyone happy, because there’s always someone that is the odd man
out.

17.  What one thing have you not done that you
really want to do?  What’s holding you back?

There are a few places
I would like to travel to. I am currently held back by a lack of funds to make
the trip properly.

18.  Are you holding onto something you need to
let go of?

*Looks around at some
stacks of paperwork.* Me? No……

19.  If you had to move to a state or country
besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

I would move to a
costal town in either Maine or Massachusetts. Why?
Because I like there.

20.  Do you push the elevator button more than
once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

No, I don’t do that
unless it is an older elevator with buttons which don’t light and potentially
have not registered that first push.

21.  Would you rather be a worried genius or a
joyful simpleton?

Worried genius. I would much rather know what is going on,
even if there’s nothing to be done about it. This is an opinion that I don’t
have in common with one of literature’s famous characters.

All right… I’m glad it’s a
girl. And I hope she’ll be a fool–that’s the best thing a girl can be in this
world, a beautiful little fool
.”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

22.  Why are you, you?

I am me because I have
failed at figuring out how to be someone else.

23.  Have you been the kind of friend you want as
a friend?

Oh, that is a hard
question. No, I don’t think I have, because I prefer someone that is ying to my
yang, not a replication.

24.  Which is worse, when a good friend moves
away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

I have lived through
both of these circumstances, and I can say with great certainty that the latter
is worse. This seems to be even more true now that stay connected with those
who move away has become easier thanks to social media networks.

25.  What are you most grateful for?

My ability to write.

26.  Would you rather lose all of your old
memories, or never be able to make new ones?

Both sound terrible to
me, but I would not be who I am without my memories- even the bad ones- so I
would rather not be able to make new ones.

27.  Is it possible to know the truth without
challenging it first?

Generally speaking,
yes. Perhaps I have too much faith in the encyclopedia.

28.  Has your greatest fear ever come true?

Yes. More than once,
in fact.

29.  Do you remember that time 5 years ago when
you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?

Five years ago? No.
Ten years ago, yes. Twelve years ago- without question. Fourteen years ago-
absolutely.

30.  What is your happiest childhood memory? 
What makes it so special?

I had a decent
childhood, so it would be difficult to select only one. There was a vacation
with my family to Canada
that was an excellent time. It’s special because we all got along so well and enjoyed
an adventure together.

31.  At what time in your recent past have you
felt most passionate and alive?

I felt the most
passionate and alive while writing the almost-kiss scene in book 1 of the
Existence series.

32.  If not now, then when?

When the time is
right, that is when.

33.  If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you
have to lose?

You have the
possibility of achieving it to lose.

34.  Have you ever been with someone, said
nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?

I have not, but I know
someone that I could hug and get this same feeling.

35.  Why do religions that support love cause so
many wars?

My characters would
deeply enjoy having this debate! I do not think that the religion is the
problem- it’s the people behind it who are busy trying to get everyone into
their little boxes. Space aliens- I’m just saying…

36.  Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what
is good and what is evil?

No, it is not
possible.

37.  If you just won a million dollars, would you
quit your job?

My job is to write,
and the only way I could quit that would be to die. So no, I would not.

38.  Would you rather have less work to do, or
more work you actually enjoy doing?

Generally I would
rather have less work to do.

39.  Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a
hundred times before?

This day, no. Have had
days like that? Yes.

40.  When was the last time you marched into the
dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?

At the end of October,
2011.

41.  If you knew that everyone you know was going
to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

Wow, this question is
horrible! I believe I would visit my parents, my brother and his family, and my
grandfather. There are a few friends that I would like to visit me, but I don’t
know that time would allow for the travel.

42.  Would you be willing to reduce your life
expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?

No, I’ll pass on that.

43.  What is the difference between being alive
and truly living?

Being alive means that
you are not dead. Your blood is moving through your body. That is the main requirement
for being alive- that blood circulates. Truly living requires actual effort. It
requires thoughts and choices and decisions. It means that there will be pain,
there will be wrong moves, and there will be mistakes- but that you’ll have to
keep on going. It means that when you fall down, you will have to pick yourself
back up. It means getting out there and doing. It’s hard.

44.  When is it time to stop calculating risk and
rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

When the calculations
no longer offer a real answer, it is time.

45.  If we learn from our mistakes, why are we
always so afraid to make a mistake?

We are afraid of the
outcome of the mistake, of the impact that it will have.

46.  What would you do differently if you knew
nobody would judge you?

This question assumes
that I care about the judgment of others to the point that there are things
which I desire to do but do not. Unless judge means an actual judge in the
court, which means that I could break a law. Until such a free pass if given, I
don’t think I should answer this question.

47.  When was the last time you noticed the sound
of your own breathing?

When I woke up this
morning, and again just now because of this question!

48.  What do you love?  Have any of your
recent actions openly expressed this love?

What do I love? What,
not who, but what? I love to write. I believe that my recent action of writing
expresses this love.

49.  In 5 years from now, will you
remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before
that?  Or the day before that?

It was a fairly
unremarkable cluster of days, but I suppose I will remember if I look back
through archives such as this blog.

50.  Decisions are being made right now.  The
question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others
make them for you?

That would depend on
the decision. The most important ones seem to be those which I make together
with my family. 

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